Tuesday, July 7, 2009

die trying

I never really intended to blog about (personal life crap) in this, but when it starts impacting my (creative work and such) it seemed worth mentioning somehow. 

It has been a very strange past two months. Celebrating family achievements with graduations, military commissioning, and birthdays all intertwined with five funerals of family members- with another this Friday.  One part or more of my family has been fortunate enough to be able to travel around the globe to say hello and goodbye.  California, Florida...Italy.

The first came as quite a shock, my grandfather had been suffering from dementia, and while disoriented, had a stroke and then quietly fell into our pool late at night.  Others seemed to come quite quickly afterwards. All different, all still shocking.  

From war photographers and farmers to business tycoons and foster moms- all individually unique and important.

In saying goodbye to their life lived, and celebrating it as well as one can, its amazing to finally find inspiration in this the oddest of places.  When you see that life can be so short, it makes you want to forgo insecurities about messing up or falling shy of the finish line or even finding yourself worthy of accolades- and simply do it regardless.   

"Its better to be a has been than a never was."

good morning everyone...